The beginning of something great

Tonight was Autism Speaks night at the ballpark. I can't believe how incredibly blessed I am to have such an amazing group of people to come out and support this cause that means so much to me. And even MORE grateful how many people I don't know who came out to support the cause itself. I'm so touched! Alex took Arianna to the game and it was so special.
She saw me on the field with another honeybee doing some stuff pregame. I heard her all the way up in our section,"HI ANNA!!" after I waved to her. It was so precious!! After I left the field, Arianna kept asking Alex where I went. She said "Anna went home?!" Over and over. And was so sad! I saw them on the concourse in the 2nd inning, and she was crying. I walked up and she was so happy to see me!! Luckily I had some time until my next promotion, so I was able to hang out with her and calm her down. We got a balloon animal (flower) and went back to the seats. She played with the iPad so by the time I had to leave she was okay with it.
I went and got her later to do the 7th inning stretch with me on the dugout. She was hilarious. One fan was screaming and yelling at one of the players and she finally yelled back at him, "be QUIET!!" Hahahaha! She's so perfect. I'm so happy I had some great friends there to help Alex keep her entertained ;) (esp Tasha!)
I can't wait to see what this builds upon in the years to come for Autism Speaks.
Love everything about tonight.
Xoxo Anna.

The human heart

"The human heart is an organ that provides a continuous blood circulation through the cardiac cycle and is one of the most vital organs in the human body."


Funny. I thought it was just a storage unit for all my crazed feelings and passions.


xo annakaye

That awkward moment when.....

I don't post self-pity things. But last week I learned a valuable lesson about myself, and why it's important to trust my gut and heart.
Dave Chappelle said once in an interview with Oprah after he had left his show without warning and hid out in Africa or something for a year...he said, "It's hard to be true to yourself. Especially when everyone is watching." That quote has stuck with me ever since that interview 8-9 years ago.
I never wanted to be that girl who molds to what someone wanted me to be, or to act the way someone else wanted me to act. I let myself down in such a hard way last week by poor decisions but most importantly because I didn't listen to my heart.
Trust takes so long to build and only seconds to destroy. And I'm not just talking about trust with others. Trust with yourself too. Maybe that's what I am most upset with, is myself. Rather than the person who I feel betrayed by. I'm stuck in that moment. Hung up on broken promises.
But how much of this is really MY fault for not being true to me? Who REALLY is to blame for my situation? Thats the golden question.
-annakaye

Location, Location, Location.

Can I just say I love my new living location? We are about the length of a couple football fields away from Trax making my life easier on those nights out on the town (drunk ass), only 10 minutes from work (left this morning at 7:45 and clocked in right at 8:00...shhyess!), and about a mile from the freeway giving me faster access to Arianna.
What else you ask? Winco.  Yep, I said it. Winco.
I am literally l/4 a mile from the 24hr grocery store harboring creatures that make the "people of WalMart" look attractive (I include myself in this stereotype:::keep reading).

Now, people will often hear me say that I'm better than Winco because I had a traumatic experience once in their produce section while searching for fuzz-less strawberries, and another when I exited the restroom behind a lady who didn't wash her hands and then proceeded to molest every piece of produce with her nasty ass hepatitis infected hands.
So, why is it so awesome that I live walking distance from this magical place?
I'll tell you....

Last night at about 7pm the fridge ran out of beer. It was a conflict because both myself and Alex were about as tipsy as high school kids get on prom night after drinking wine coolers.
Shit. It's only 7 on Sunday and all we have is hard liquor in the cupboard.  One of us probably could have drove, but after I crashed Indra's BMW last thing I should be doing is driving while semi-intoxicated.
Crisis averted :::: From our front porch we can see the bright neon glow of Winco shining in the distance. I threw on some sneakers and we booked it.
Now, a weekend of moving into our new place, I was tired. Exhausted actually.  Drunk, full of chips and salsa, and exhausted. I hate grocery store shopping, and I hate grocery store shopping even more when I'm uncomfortable.
Then, like a ginger standing in a crowd of asians, I once again was presented with an obvious solution to my dilemma of  laziness.

Alex told me someone was going to say something and kick me off.  Bull shit. Who's going to question a homeless looking girl with dark glasses on her 'handicap' reason for using the COURTESY electric cart? No one. That's who.  In the 20 minutes we spent in the store I went from sprained ankle, to blind, to post surgery anesthetic nausea, to just admitting I was being lazy.
I tried to make it look believable at first by stretching my right leg out straight...not sure why I thought that would deter any suspicion...? :/

Does this constitute as drinking and driving? No one was seriously injured, but I wonder had I accidentally ran over a small child if I would have been subject to a breathalyzer?

The best part of this adventure? I blended right in with the trolls of WinCo.


Beer, lemons, and limes.
Shit got real.

Now Listening To:  Alex Acoustic Live at Talavera

It's a 4th of July Miracle!!

Part I

Mac and I went camping to celebrate our independence.  We went up to Big Cottonwood Canyon and just set up our lil two person campsite along side a whole bunch of other people ready to enjoy their holiday.  Yeah, we went to a campsite....but I don't know if we're savvy enough to survive in the back country QUITE yet ;)
We had so much fun. We took off work a little early, and we were all set up and drinking it up by 6pm.  Alex forgot a couple of key items:::
First, a bottle opener.  His beer wasn't twist off.  The night couldn't have been kicked off any better than when he was trying to open his beer using any MacGyver tool he could find.  He tried opening it by putting the bottle top on the end of the picnic table and smashing the neck - I guess in theory this should have popped off the top.  But it didn't.  His immediate response to his fail was "Fuckin Fonzie". I don't know that the situation holds any sort of applicable value for such a statement, but oh gosh it was hilarious. You had to have been there I guess ;)

 All struggles in this pic of him trying to start the fire

((((((( I started this fire FYI......)))))

 Hottie went and fetched us some fire wood ;)

Forgot another crucial camping item......a mother fcking knife. He Macgyver'd it again, and used a Diet Coke can to cut his wiener!!

Part II

We packed up and went home pretty early on the 4th.  On our way home we decided to stop and look at some possible places to move into since it didn't look likely that we were going to be able to fall under any sort of "extenuating circumstance" so that we could get into another home :(
We stopped at this place called Talavera at the Junction. They have adorable town homes....so...
Looked at the 3 bedroom. Thought, wow we def cant afford this ($1600mo), but how would it be? Alex and I are the type of people who are "don't go with the first thing you see" even if it might be amazing. But then we looked at their 2bdrm 2bath town homes.  O M G.
Where has this place been all my life? Needless to say, we bought out of our lease at Serengeti and we picked up the keys to our darling lil town home that next Wednesday.
This was our first weekend in our new home.....and I honestly can't remember the last time I felt so excited and happy.  This is where we belong for now. And ya know what? I'm 100% ok with it.  Yeah, we don't own it...but here we are in a brand new town home that is more than enough room (1200sq ft) for us and our little puppies :) We are the only persons to ever live in this suite, which is comforting knowing there's no previous owner history haha.
I am so proud. It's not the materialistic side of things that matter - but it's the fact that no one but us decided that we wanted to be here. We weren't forced to be here, like we were with the Serengeti apartments.  We wanted to be here. This is where we want to be.
I'm so in love with life right now.

Part III

Here are some pics of me and my loves at the games the week of the 4th - I am so sad that the season is almost over....This has been the most amazing summer of my life and I have made some amazing life long friends.  I hope that I am lucky enough to come back next year!

 Firework time with my fireworks  :) :) :) :) :)

Part IV

Some pics of Arianna and me on the 4th of July enjoying the fireworks :) We went to James and Shantelle's for a BBQ with their family.  Arianna always has a blast playing with her little cousins. Wow that little girl lights up my life more than what is typical.

Showing her MUSCLES!!!!

 Watching Fireworks!!!!!!!!!!

 My Firework <3 No one will ever get what this little girl is to me...

Now listening to: Postcard from Paris - The Band Perry

Bad News Never Had Good Timing

Well, we are still trying to plead our case of "extenuating circumstances" to a lender so that we can get into another home this fall.
So far, not so good. BUT - me (being the hot head that I am) made some advancement with the actual big wigs of FHA. I will keep this blog posted on that....
But for now, the lenders still say we are a liability to lend to.  Apparently, being a target of attempted homicide and being told by police to relocate and forced to short sell isn't sufficient enough of a situation for them to reconsider.
I understand, its a business and a huge money game. I just wish people had morals.

I'm praying, and hoping that anyone that reads this does too.

It's not about materialistic things - it's about rebuilding, coping with what was unfairly taken, and healing.  

I hate this apartment in quiet West Jordan. I didn't come here by choice, so it's not my 'home'. 

I feel homeless and displaced here. 

So all I really wanna know is.........
Where'd all the good people go?

I'm just playin', I know you're out there.. <3


Someone will finance us, I just know it =)


A.S.A.P.
(always say a prayer)

Oh, Hi There Blog (and Outdoorzz)

It's been a while....No, I didn't forget about you. Life just got super crazy after my last post in September. I'll post as applicable when appropriate from here on out ;)

Alex and I have been exploring our outdoorsie-ness lately. We've gone on a few hikes, gotten some gnarly sunburns, caught some fish, and even started camping. Yeah - I know. I used to love camping when I was a kid, we'd go with my dad or neighbors all the time and I always loved it. But as an adult I freakin hated it because of how much work it is. But we're building up all our gear and getting a pretty sick setup so it's actually not that complicated to load up and go for a day or so.

Last night after I got done working the Bee's game (a 2nd job I am so lucky to have during the baseball season!!) Alex was waiting for me in the parking lot with the Jeep all loaded up with our sleeping bags, fishing poles, bug spray, hiking shoes, beer, and all those other necessities when going wild. It was 11pm and we headed up Big Cottonwood Canyon.
We finally found a place to park it and we fell asleep pretty fast, haha. But we woke up bright and early in time to head over to Silver Lake and spend a few hours preying on the fishies.
ALEX caught the only two of the day, but that's a'ight. I was having a good time just watching his biceps flex every time he would cast out.
After we fished for a while we went on a hike up to Lake Mary, Lake Martha, and Lake Catherine which is about a 3 mile hike from Brighton ski resort. It was so nice!!
Here are some pics from today's adventure!!

FASH!

Silver Lake

 These were our little friend just chillin under Al's chair while we fished...eating pretzels ;)

Pre-Hike Annuh

The last stretch to Lake Mary was rough...but sooo worth it once we got there.

My cute hike guide

 YUP that's snow! There was a lot more than I thought would be there.

Lake Mary

Hike up a little while further and there's

Lake Martha

 Hike up even further and you see Lake Mary AND Lake Martha! SOO PRETTY

 Smooch stop ;) 

 Then there was the red-headed-step-child...Lake Catherine.

This is where we had lunch. Jel?? 

 Post-Hike....

I don't know why I feel like I am above using sun screen. I guess it's because I secretly hope that I'm "tan enough" to not get burned, just more bronze!! Denial burns.

I'll post some pics from the hike we did last weekend...which was another killer six miles.