Dave Chappelle said once in an interview with Oprah after he had left his show without warning and hid out in Africa or something for a year...he said, "It's hard to be true to yourself. Especially when everyone is watching." That quote has stuck with me ever since that interview 8-9 years ago.
I never wanted to be that girl who molds to what someone wanted me to be, or to act the way someone else wanted me to act. I let myself down in such a hard way last week by poor decisions but most importantly because I didn't listen to my heart.
Trust takes so long to build and only seconds to destroy. And I'm not just talking about trust with others. Trust with yourself too. Maybe that's what I am most upset with, is myself. Rather than the person who I feel betrayed by. I'm stuck in that moment. Hung up on broken promises.
But how much of this is really MY fault for not being true to me? Who REALLY is to blame for my situation? Thats the golden question.
-annakaye
