The beginning of something great

Tonight was Autism Speaks night at the ballpark. I can't believe how incredibly blessed I am to have such an amazing group of people to come out and support this cause that means so much to me. And even MORE grateful how many people I don't know who came out to support the cause itself. I'm so touched! Alex took Arianna to the game and it was so special.
She saw me on the field with another honeybee doing some stuff pregame. I heard her all the way up in our section,"HI ANNA!!" after I waved to her. It was so precious!! After I left the field, Arianna kept asking Alex where I went. She said "Anna went home?!" Over and over. And was so sad! I saw them on the concourse in the 2nd inning, and she was crying. I walked up and she was so happy to see me!! Luckily I had some time until my next promotion, so I was able to hang out with her and calm her down. We got a balloon animal (flower) and went back to the seats. She played with the iPad so by the time I had to leave she was okay with it.
I went and got her later to do the 7th inning stretch with me on the dugout. She was hilarious. One fan was screaming and yelling at one of the players and she finally yelled back at him, "be QUIET!!" Hahahaha! She's so perfect. I'm so happy I had some great friends there to help Alex keep her entertained ;) (esp Tasha!)
I can't wait to see what this builds upon in the years to come for Autism Speaks.
Love everything about tonight.
Xoxo Anna.

The human heart

"The human heart is an organ that provides a continuous blood circulation through the cardiac cycle and is one of the most vital organs in the human body."


Funny. I thought it was just a storage unit for all my crazed feelings and passions.


xo annakaye

That awkward moment when.....

I don't post self-pity things. But last week I learned a valuable lesson about myself, and why it's important to trust my gut and heart.
Dave Chappelle said once in an interview with Oprah after he had left his show without warning and hid out in Africa or something for a year...he said, "It's hard to be true to yourself. Especially when everyone is watching." That quote has stuck with me ever since that interview 8-9 years ago.
I never wanted to be that girl who molds to what someone wanted me to be, or to act the way someone else wanted me to act. I let myself down in such a hard way last week by poor decisions but most importantly because I didn't listen to my heart.
Trust takes so long to build and only seconds to destroy. And I'm not just talking about trust with others. Trust with yourself too. Maybe that's what I am most upset with, is myself. Rather than the person who I feel betrayed by. I'm stuck in that moment. Hung up on broken promises.
But how much of this is really MY fault for not being true to me? Who REALLY is to blame for my situation? Thats the golden question.
-annakaye